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Saturday, January 31, 2009 12:03 AM

last day of work.

well, I've officially ended my job on friday. can't say it's today cos it's already after midnight so technically it's saturday morning already.

in a way I'm glad I'm no longer working at this job. I don't want to post up the reason why I'm no longer working, so if you really want to know just ask me personally.

somehow I felt abit empty and kind of depressed that today's my last day. sure, I'm relieved because I'm glad in a way that I don't have to get through all these depressing stuff.

it came about when I was handling a case where I had to type a letter to the traffic police requesting for the traffic report. the case was between a taxi and a pedestrian, and the pedestrian was seriously injured when he got knocked down by the taxi, and since doctors couldn't save him despite what they did, he died soon after.
it struck me hard somehow. especially after I looked through the medical report that was in the case folder. the medical terms used were really complicated and I couldn't understand most of it, but it was easy to get the gist of it anyway.

I've handled so many accident cases since I started work, from claiming repair costs for damaged vehicles to getting medical reports and bills, but this is the first time I've come across a case where there was a fatality.

it struck me that life is really short, and that you never know what could happen within an instant.
at the time the letter that I was supposed to be typing required a cheque of a 3-figure sum in order to get the report.

suddenly the injuries that occur in the personal injury cases that I've handled seem really insignificant. I mean, they range from bruises, strains, stable head injury at the most serious injury I've seen so far. but this is the most extreme case I've ever seen since I started work.

what came to my mind when I was handling that case was that the money required for the investigation of the accident would seem really insignificant. it's like, no matter how much money you fork out for investigations, to claim damages and all that, it doesn't change the fact that a life has been lost and can never ever be brought back.

it's really a very depressing and saddening thought. especially when the realization that nothing can be done sinks in.

I wonder if this is how doctors feel when they are unable to save the life of a patient despite doing their utmost best to do whatever they can. though I believe that in their hearts, doctors will feel the heartache. but the family gets hit the worst of all. at least, this is just my personal opinion since blood is thicker than water after all.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009 10:49 PM

CNY! =D

happy new (牛) year everyone! =D

ok, this period is a period meant to eat to your heart's content. =D which unfortunately also means that you will definitely put on weight argh.

ohwell. =)

for a change, instead of cooking reunion dinner, my family went out to park hotel for reunion. could say the food there was nice, but variety wise it's abit limited.

and I can't believe that park hotel is actually just behind orchard swensens. maybe it's just that I've never observed closely.

array of desserts at park hotel. didn't manage to get pics for the main courses cos some ppl were already getting food then.

first day was off to grandparents' places and my cousin's place to bai nian, gosh I really stuffed my face lol. and hongbaos many many! =D
night time was all the relatives from my mum's side coming over to my place for hardcore mahjong LOL. such a typical scene though. how can you not have gambling, bridge, daidee and mahjong during CNY? =D

second day was off to my 2 aunts' places, with 2nd aunt in the morning, 1st aunt at night. night time was japanese buffet omg I like! =D

my niece is absolutely adorable. =) she immediately became the centre of attention the minute the guests came to my 1st aunt's house cos she's so cute and so intelligent. and she's only 2 and a half years old. gosh.

ok till then! have to work tml.

Sunday, January 25, 2009 1:44 AM

it's 1.44am now and I'm still sitting in front of the com, not feeling tired at all. simply because I had a 3 hour nap earlier so any thought of sleep is non-existent despite my dad's nagging to get me off the com hahaha. =D

龙战骑士-周杰伦

1 word to describe this MV: COOL!

it reminds me of world of warcraft somehow, even though I've never played the game before. maybe it's the setting of the MV. and I like the motorcycle and gun too! =D

and like finally this video is out, the previous one that I found on youtube back during december hols isn't the genuine video -.-
the only thing that I don't really like is that they extended the song in the MV. I still think the original, shorter version on the CD is nicer! =\ I'm probably too used to the short version that the longer one doesn't seem as nice as me.

swimming today with tab was fun as usual, talked more than we swam LOL. but we still got a tan anyway. not as sunburnt as I thought it would be, it was much worse during december hols.

CNY, faster come! =D

Saturday, January 24, 2009 12:14 AM

impending CNY.

work really makes me feel exhausted. the stacks of files and papers there are absolutely jaw dropping. not to mention that I feel tired literally all the time and since I have the habit of sleeping late everyday, this problem is worsened. ohwell.

it was bad enough to be woken up early thurday morning at 4AM by mosquito bites. irritating thing, 1 on my leg, 1 on my ear. =( and later it was 3 on my arm. =( talk about a killer mozzie attack. because of this I became a walking zombie when it was finally time to get up for work.

my work consists of handling many(x100000) accident reports, and I thought that the law firm only handled accident reports, until on thurs when I was sifting out the files for despatch then I discovered that the firm handles divorce cases as well. =0

from the first day I felt as though I'd really seen everything, I've never ever seen so many accident reports at one go. talk about jaw-dropping indeed.

this is how my desk looks like before a whole stack of files come descending for despatch, updating and letter generating.

the astounding number of files is the reason why I've concluded that this place is a potential fire hazard hahaha. =)

after work today my mum called me and asked whether I wanted to go to chinatown to soak up the CNY atmosphere, so I decided to tag along even though I didn't exactly want to go because of the crowd.

and really, the human traffic was incredible. walking seems impossible as well.

I like the colour of this building. if I'm not wrong it's a tattoo parlour.

just look at the human traffic.

quite random. but I like! =D and I can see my own reflection in the glass when I snapped this pic. =)

oh yay, meeting tab today(I can't say tomorrow haha cos it's already past midnight so technically it's 24th jan already) for a good swim. =) and it will probably mean an even darker sunburn than what I'm having now. LOL.

can't wait for CNY to come. =) and one thing that I hate is the speculation of when results are coming out, cos it only makes me more stressed and it's actually reflected on my face, like what one of my colleagues told me earlier this week. =\ but I've worked for it, the rest is up to God already. =)

Sunday, January 18, 2009 10:09 PM

oh yes, it's jay chou's birthday today! haha. =D

love! <3

another day at work tml, oh no. I'm prepared to face the computer for most of the day again tml. =/ and do alot more paper pushing.

Saturday, January 17, 2009 11:24 PM

today in a nutshell: SLEEP!

basically it's because of my cough and that I slept really late yesterday.

so it was off to the doctor this morning to check out why I lost my voice last week and my persisstent cough which got on my nerves the entire week when I was working.

since cough medicine knocks me out easily(and it's the only kind of medicine that knocks me out as far as I know), within an hour of taking it I was lying on the bed already and I spent the entire afternoon sleeping.

what a day. and I meant to hit the library to have a really good read. =\

I realised how much I miss school. for the past years everytime when it's the start of a new year, it's slipping on the uniform and off to school.

for the first time ever I don't have to wear school uniform. and it feels kind of strange.

I miss jj. even though it isn't the best school ever(I know many ppl will agree with me on this!) but I still miss the good times and all the crazy moments that has happened within these 2 years.

I miss the school compound. and I haven't been back since end of 'A's.

and this will most likely mean I'm going back to crash orientation when it comes. since I can't be senior fac cos I'm working now.

it's 周杰伦's birthday in a few minutes! =D
ok this is really random. LOL.

7:19 PM

what working life is really like.

just 1 week into working and I already feel like a walking zombie. this is BAD.
or maybe I'm just not used to it yet.
and maybe it's because I'm not completely over the cough yet.

it sucks to keep coughing continually. =( and I have to keep drinking water which means I have to keep going to the restroom. damn. =(

I seriously can't stand the thought of doing all that paper pushing sometimes, especially as when more papers come in, it equals to more confusion and frustration.

yesterday's working was absolutely hectic, shihui and I almost couldn't get our despatch letters done by 12pm, updating of files was almost left undone cos more work kept piling up, she had to type out 4 letters of demand if I'm not wrong, I had to open up about 7 cases of which 5 are already done. and the list goes on and on.

which made me late in meeting cherie cos I was supposed to meet her at 6 at city hall, I left office at 615. luckily my workplace is about 10 min walk to city hall station.

anyway, we had fun talking and talking. and we are both direction idiots LOL.

I suggested walking towards orchard cos adult fare is an absolute curse, she agreed. and somehow, we ended up walking up towards tanjong pagar. and when we were at raffles place, we actually checked the map for far east plaza. in all, we walked for 1 hour plus, non-stop. how cool is that?! LOL.

but nonetheless, good to catch up after not seeing her since prom. and we talked and talked non-stop. hahaha!

back to reality, there's still a ton of paperwork waiting for me in the office. (I can't wait. NOT!)
I want to get the table neat and tidy, but at the rate the paperwork's coming in, I think it will take a miracle to get the table neat.

another reason why I'm a walking zombie is also partly due to the fact that I meet up with friends after work, which makes me get home at around 10+pm. =)

met up with nandita on thurs at westmall, we had a really great time catching up with one another after nearly 6 months of not meeting up and reminiscing about jc days. and 2 hours plus of talking still isn't enough somehow. =D
and westmall is the place where you see ex-jj ppl LOL. while walking past pastamania to meet nandita, I saw shengda. then when we were walking around bb area, I saw clement. hahaha.

can't wait for CNY to come. =D

Tuesday, January 13, 2009 9:56 PM

working life.

working life is quite fun for me. even though it means doing a lot of paper pushing, admin stuff and computer work.

hell, the amount of paper that I see in the office is way more than the amount that I cleared out after 'A's. it's like a potential fire hazard due to the humongous amount of files and papers in there. get the idea? lol.

but the work is not bad, with shihui also.

and the 2 girls, jessica and shiqi, whom we're going to replace are really nice as well. they're from anglican and just got 'O's results yesterday. talk about smart, jessica's a 6-pointer, shiqi's a 7-pointer! =)

and I think that our temporary staff table today was extremely noisy, cos the 4 of us were gabbing away while doing work as well. lol. =D like how shiqi was doing online shopping in a lull shortly after lunch hours earlier hahaha! xD and the fact that some of the younger staff actually use facebook and msn during working hours is really funny. I also signed in to facebook to check my stuff and sign out immediately, but they stay on longer, viewing photos as well. how cool is that LOL.

the only downside now is that I'm down with the flu and coughing is inevitable. and the air-con in the office doesn't help in trying to ease the coughing and the occasional blocked nose. which makes me a potential health threat to most ppl around me now cos the coughing comes and my throat hurts. =\

ohwell. that's life. I just want to shake off the flu before CNY or I won't get to enjoy all the CNY goodies. =D hahaha.

I realised my blog now doesn't seem to have many photos, so I'll try to post up some photos soon.

jessica asked me whether I joined sports CCA in jc, cos she said that I'm really very black. lol. yeah my sunburn! HAHAHA! xD

ok, ending off here, will have to sleep soon or I'll be a walking zombie tml morning again. =)

Sunday, January 11, 2009 3:58 PM

I'm starting work tml! =)
like finally. getting bored with the bum life where you have nothing better to do besides playing computer almost 24/7.

and I can earn money as well. =D

right now I'm just annoyed at my voice cos it sounds abit too sexy(read: SORE THROAT!)
my voice suddenly died on me yesterday afternoon without any warning and by evening talking was made nearly impossible. it didn't help that dinner with my mum at some hongkong restaurant at jp(it's the one outside jp old extension) was extremely yucky.
like seriously, I can make better instant noodles than them. no kidding.

the good thing is, my voice is back. but still sounds abit weird cos my blocked nose is STILL not gone yet. damn thing. and I think this might be the reason why I suddenly lost my voice.

the last time I lost my voice was at 01 last year. LOL. thanks to shouting and cheering too much.

Saturday, January 10, 2009 4:13 PM

sunburnt!

the result of going swimming often during dec hols and walking around under the hot sun=SUNBURN!

yes, I went swimming with tab during the long hols after 'A's quite a number of times and I love it. =)

I went swimming with her a few days before prom, no wonder I seem to look so tanned in some of the prom photos. lucky I wasn't burnt lobster red. imagine how horrible that would look. worse still if your skin starts peeling.

and a few more times during the dec hols, and within this week I went swimming 3 times. how burnt can I get is something I wonder.

I joked with shihui over the phone that I'm so brown that even if a chocolate bar was rubbed on me, no one would be able to see the chocolate on the skin. HAHAHA! x) the very obvious contrast can be seen if I wear light-coloured clothes omg.

at least now it's not so bad, I have a tan. =) and wasted, I didn't go cycling at ECP during hols. and I really wanted to. =( ohwell, wait for the next hols before going cycling.

some of the guys I know have already enlisted and it made me realise how fast time flies. one moment we were complaining about how horrible the process of studying and going through 'A's would be, in the blink of an eye 'A's are over, some of the guys have enlisted.

what can I say, except c'est la vie! =)

Friday, January 09, 2009 10:26 PM

the amazing power of music.

really, it's amazing how music can impact one's life. at least for me.

I was at esplanade library earlier to find books needed for my diploma research, as I'm going for teaching diploma, so it's necessary to discover more about the history of music, psychology of students and so on. and I came across this book on westlife, which chronicled their concert tour around the world.

at that point in time, I was really surprised cos I never really expected that esplanade library would have this kind of books, even though I did discover a book of guitar scores of jay chou songs.

needless to say, I borrowed that book and I've finished it already! within the space of about 2 hours? =D

so now I'm playing back westlife songs on the computer. and it kind of brings back a lot of memories of my childhood days cos I started listening to westlife when I was about 10, and also because my cousins and I were crazy over them at that time, constantly watching their videos on a near daily basis.

now I don't play their videos as often, but still listen to their songs now and then. =)

but nonetheless, music really can make one reminisce the past easily. at least that's what I feel about it.

Monday, January 05, 2009 11:54 PM

the past and the future.

if I had a time machine, many things could be done easily, like predicting the future or going back to reminisce your past.
sounds familiar? it's actually something quoted from jay chou on one of his latest songs, 时光机, if i'm not wrong.

but really, 时光机 is really one thing that I want.

somehow I'd want to be back in 2007, where the word 'study' didn't exist in our dictonary back then. it was more of playing and having fun with friends.
I could say that PAE was the best time of my life. really.

JAE also has its good moments too. but then again, it's always the case in life. =)

I heartily curse adult fare right now. damn, it definitely depletes my ez-link. and it will deplete faster once I start work next week. furthermore I work at city hall. OMG. I don't even want to think about how much further my card value will deplete. what's more is that I just topped up $10 when I went out earlier too. I really hate adult fare. >.<

met up with some of the s34 ppl on sunday for dinner and catch up with one another, before the guys enter army. =) but zhihong was the only guy who turned up, the rest didn't. =\

group photo. =)

it's funny, but I realised that quite a number of guys in jj seem to enlist in april. it makes me curious as to how it is determined when the guys will enter army.

enjoy! =)

时光机-周杰伦

墙角迎风的雏菊
茉莉花开的香气
闭上眼回到过去
划分界限的桌椅
下课却靠在一起
我就是离不开你

一路乘着溜滑梯
我们说好走到底
以为从此就分离
用黑板上的日期
倒数找你

慢慢清晰
原来思念你
是加了糖的消息
我用铅笔
画得很仔细
素描那年天气
蝉鸣的夏季
我想遇见你

那童年的希望是一台时光机
我可以一路开心到底都不换气
戴竹蜻蜓穿过那森林
打开了任意门找到你
一起旅行
那童年的希望是一台时光机
你我翻滚过的榻榻米味道熟悉
所有回忆在小叮当口袋里
一起荡秋千的默契
在风中持续着甜蜜

有些话总来不及
一直都放在心底
想要将你看仔细
但错身而过的你
已经离去

慢慢清晰
原来思念你
是加了糖的消息
我用铅笔
画得很仔细
素描那年天气
蝉鸣的夏季
我想遇见你

那童年的希望是一台时光机
我可以一路开心到底都不换气
戴竹蜻蜓穿过那森林
打开了任意门找到你
一起旅行
那童年的希望是一台时光机
你我翻滚过的榻榻米味道熟悉
所有回忆在小叮当口袋里
一起荡秋千的默契
在风中持续着甜蜜

那童年的希望是一台时光机
我可以一路开心到底都不换气
戴竹蜻蜓穿过那森林
打开了任意门找到你
一起旅行
那童年的希望是一台时光机
你我翻滚过的榻榻米味道熟悉
所有回忆在小叮当口袋里
一起荡秋千的默契
在风中持续着甜蜜

持续着甜蜜
持续着甜蜜
哦持续着甜蜜

this MV kind of reminds me about the past somehow. =)
on new year's day I was watching doraemon on tv. LOL. and watching doraemon reminded me about this video cos the theme is pretty similar. =)

Saturday, January 03, 2009 12:41 AM

looking back to the past.

it's another year, a new beginning.

what all of us in the 2008 JC2 cohort would wish for in year 2009 is of course, getting good results for 'A' Levels, in order to continue with their pursuit of their education in order to succeed in the future.

can I do well for 'A' Levels?
this question is one that has come back to me time and time again, and it's something that my parents ask me once a while.
my honest answer is that I cannot be absolutely sure because some of the papers were quite good, some weren't. so it's very hard to judge exactly.
henceforth, everything is in the hands of Lord Jesus. I pray that I can get the results that I worked and aimed for, and that I can enter NUS FASS(faculty of arts & social science) or NTU HSS(holistic social science-if i'm not wrong).

I checked NTU's website yesterday and I discovered that everything is necessary for me to enter. oh my. so now I pray that I can pass physics since it has always been a bad subject for me.

everything's up to God to decide now.

Friday, January 02, 2009 11:28 AM

first post of 2009

happy new year to all! =D

hope that this year will not be one filled with uncertainty and doubts. and that it wouldn't be as stress-filled and exhausting as before.