Tuesday, August 21, 2007
10:16 PM
worry.
somehow I feel I'm not having the confidence that I should have.
even in these days, I'm not really in the mood to talk. if I do talk, it's only to ppl whom I'm close to and whom I can confide all my closest secrets with. it's like when I'm in a big group, somehow I don't talk much. but when I'm with 1 or 2 of my closest friends, I can chat with them like there's no tomorrow.
i don't know why I feel this way, perhaps it's just my thoughts are in a mess and I tend to keep some secrets to myself unless it's to a close friend whom you can really trust.
yesterday was frustration day for me. I got scolded during chem tutorial for nothing. just because mahmudah asked me whether I had any tissue paper, and I replied her no, and helped her to ask sijie if she had any tissue with her, I got told off as a result. and it wasn't my fault or anything. it's only a natural response on my part to respond to a friend's request. if I don't reply, how would the other party feel? it's as though you're ignoring that person on purpose. I so hate this kind of feeling. it's damn sucky. and for a split second, I felt as though I was near to tears. but in the end I didn't, of course. it was just so damn unfair that I got told off for a minor incident that had little significance. and it's like there are other people in class who are frequently disrupting the lesson. go vent your spleen on them, cos they're slowing down the pace of the lessons, and this kind of thing usually makes my irritation grow stronger by the day. seems like in every lesson yesterday, the tutors were in PMS mode. DAMN.
when the month of august is here, it means that my chances of going broke are high. the big reason.
TOO MANY BIRTHDAYS IN THE MONTH OF AUGUST!here's the schedule of my friends' birthdays in the month of august:
5th: me!
7th: padey, chayee
9th: minjun
14th: zhishen
15th: junie, nissah
16th: peiting
17th: eric
20th: zhihong
23rd: yiqian
24th: jiahan
27th: su ern <3
29th: tabbie <3
30th: shihui <3
31st: sabbie, shujun <3
that's one long list indeed. august really is the month of birthdays. that's all I can say.