Tuesday, September 18, 2007
12:06 AM
stressx3
 
PW is like a vampire. dammit. cos it sucks my blood dry.
mugging is absolutely draining as well. =\
it seems like these days, all that I'm praying for is patience to get through all my revision. and it doesn't help that I have to constantly fight the stress of pw, revision and the consistently bugging ghoul of tiredness and exhaustion that seems to befall me these few days. and I keep getting headaches too. probably lack of sleep.
and I study in school literally everyday now, willing myself not to just slump down on the table and fall asleep. oh my. where's my strong motivation? I need it much more! 
it's not that I don't have the motivation to study. it's just that I feel that the power is not strong enough to push me further into my studying. and it's like after 1 or 2 hours of studying, I'm tired already. while some people can easily do a 3 or 4 hour stint. what's best is that there are some people who don't really study much, yet can do really well.
is the number of hours you put in for study and your concentration level up to the individual? am I pushing myself too much? am I getting way too stressed out? am I not hardworking enough? 
I also have no idea how to completely phrase out my thoughts. I just want to get through promos with at least passes overall. I'm alraedy past caring about whether I get A or B for my subjects. what everyone tells me is that J1 is about passing and getting yourself promoted to J2, and J2 is the time when you work on improving your results to As and Bs, so that it's good enough to enter into your desired courses at university.