Wednesday, November 07, 2007
10:01 AM
feeling down.
 
seeing them together makes me feel a deep sadness in my heart. it seems as though no matter how hard I try to get over him, it would ultimately be impossible to totally forget what happened. a small part of me will remember forever, all the simple and thoughtful gestures. it's really saddening to feel this way. 
trying to get over someone is one thing. to completely get over him is another thing altogether. it's not an easy process of life, but it still has to be done no matter what, and so far, I think I'm alright. but after not seeing him for so long, then suddenly seeing him one day.. I know that what's not meant to happen will definitely not occur.
talking to him was great, cos we used to chat together in the past. but now.. it seems abit different. even though we're just friends, the feeling lingers sometimes. 
I think I should just adopt a heck care attitude and let the friendship remain. it's always better to be friends sometimes.
I got really spooked out yesterday morning when I was on my way to school, when I cut through the quiet area around blocks 550+. for one instant, I felt someone mess my hair from behind, and I thought that someone was trying to play a prank on me by scaring me from behind. but when I turned around, 
there was no one behind me. and that feeling happened not once, but 
3 times. the second time it happened, I totally panicked, screamed out loud and started to walk even faster. and again, I turned around but no one was behind me. the third time it happened, I just ran like mad and luckily, I was already very near to the school gate by then. however, the third time I turned around, I did see 4 J2 guys at a good distance behind me.
talk about freaky. oh my gosh. could this probably mean something more sinister?