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Tuesday, December 11, 2007 11:00 PM

torn between 2 tough choices

I feel really torn right now. it's hard to prioritise which one is more important to me, because both events have a very significant meaning to me. between band and OGL, it's so hard to determine which one is more important.

band fest means alot to me because of percussion, and the pieces that we're playing. they're tough, yet they're the kind that i'm eager to try out and enjoy. and also, I'm eager and excited to perform at esplanade concert hall. no doubt, I have performed at esplanade theatre hall before last year, but it would be equally cool to perform at esplanade concert hall, it'd be a great eye-opener to me as well, to actually see what esplanade concert hall looks like, and if it's any different from the theatre hall.

but OGL has a greater impact on me since the start of the year, when I first stepped into JJ. for the first time, I felt as though I really and truly belonged. but that doesn't mean that I felt out of place at commonwealth. it's just that the atmosphere in commonwealth and that in JJ is completely different.
OGL somehow brought me out of my shell, I enjoyed myself tremendously. it was OGL that made my days in JJ extremely memorable, from being in love fiesta to 02, when I was in SCDC shadows, to other leadership activities in school, and to now, being OGL for 01 next year.
it was OGL that made my days in JJ really fulfilling, exciting, enjoyable and thrilling. and some of my commonwealth friends also noticed a change in me, because during PAE I really skipped alot of lessons, which was quite unlike me back in commonwealth. example, when I was in commonwealth, I skipped only 1 remedial class. during PAE, I could skip up to 3 lessons in a day, and on the very last day of PAE, before 02 started, I ponned a whole day's worth of lessons with my friends.
see the contrast?
it was through OGL that I knew many of my friends, and we could have fun together, whether it's mass dance, water games or just hanging out together after school lessons and just chatting about school and personal stuff in general.

even by typing out all my deepest thoughts down, I still can't decide which is more important. maybe I should just see it in the time span each activity has.
band fest starts from tml until performance day on this sunday. OGL has wet games+mass dance trial on thurs, OGL camp on next friday to saturday, and the big 02 when school reopens.

I really don't want to miss out on the wet games+mass dance trial on thursday, since they might teach our batch dance, and possibly plan out our family performance. what's more, I really want to be involved in the performance itself too. I don't want to give it up, but who knows what might happen. it's hard to say.