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Saturday, July 19, 2008 12:08 AM

mock prelims week(s)

maths mock prelim paper 1 today. not as horrible as expected, but still alot of marks gone. damn. =(
and there's econs mock prelims next week, and maths mock prelims paper 2 the week after next.

say hello to more stress, and to staying up late again for days on end. =\

it's been quite a tiring few days, no thanks to maths, maths and more maths. talk about maddening maths. and soon I'd be staring down at evil econs.
what's more, red bull doesn't help at all, despite the fact that it really kept me alert. it gave me terrible heartburn and a not-so-good night's sleep, and the subsequent result the next day was that I felt extremely half-dead.

anyway, I've been feeling a bit disoriented lately, partly fuelled by insufficient sleep and last-minute cramming for mock prelims and for the actual prelims and 'A's.
it's hard to shake off that feeling of unease whenever you feel that you can't achieve something, even though you've been working really hard for it. and unfortunately for me, I feel I'm the kind of person who gets affected easily when I hear various comments.
sometimes ignorance is really the best policy. being ignorant sometimes is in a way equivalent to prevent yourself from getting emotionally hurt.
many times, I feel like I want to just throw everything-mainly studies aside for a short period of time and just really slack off. though now it's killer 'A's year, it's hard not to neglect your books. if your books are neglected for too long it means you're prepared to flunk 'A's. badly.

ohwell. enough of grumbling. I'm so going to grit my teeth and battle this out to the end.

断了的弦-周杰伦

断了的弦再怎么连
我的感觉你已听不见
你的转变像断掉的弦
再怎么接音都不对
你的改变我能够分辨

我沉默你的话也不多
我们之间少了什么不说
哎哟我笑后
表情终于有点难过握着你的手
问你决定了再走

我突然释怀的笑笑声盘旋半山腰
随风在飘摇啊摇来到你的面前绕
你泪水往下的掉说会记住我的好
我也弯着我嘴角笑

你的美已经给了谁
追了又追我要不回
我了解离开树的叶
属于地上的世界凋谢
断了的弦再弹一遍
我的世界你不在里面
我的指尖已经弹出茧
还是无法留你在我身边

断了的弦再怎么连
我的感觉你已听不见
你的转变像断掉的弦
再怎么接音都不对
你的改变我能够分辨

this song kind of reflects my mood these days somehow.
I feel kind of emo these days as well.

I want to talk to him for ages but I lack the courage to do so. I get so tongue-tied around him but when I see him outside of school he can be very nice. he's the kind of guy who can be very nice but can also be extremely irritating at times.
ah well. heck. I'd try not to let this affect me so much. get my work done first.