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Friday, April 16, 2010 12:41 AM

Kaleidoscope of thoughts

Most people who've been keeping up with the news would have heard about how Loh Ying Jie met with a jetski accident in Phuket, and didn't manage to pull through the ordeal.

Heartache! Furthermore, he's so young, he's only 1 year older than me and had his future ahead of him too. Who would have expected something so terrible to happen! Unfortunate and untimely. :(
And I realised that he happens to be my senior's friend. Saddening and shocking to hear.
I can never fathom the thought of losing a loved one-regardless of whether it's family or friend. It's too upsetting to contemplate, even though in life, death is definitely inevitable.

Rest in peace, Ying Jie.

On another note, I finally signed up for Basic Theory Test today at BBDC. Something which I'd been intending to do since last year, but kept putting off.
I was with my mum, and we were watching candidates take their driving tests while waiting for my turn to register. It was quite funny to watch them somehow, but I could also sense the astronomical stress level the candidates were definitely feeling.

Somehow, the thought of the practical test intimidates me totally. The thoughts that kept running through my mind when I was going through the Basic Theory guidebook basically were fears that I would meet with an accident when I was driving.

I think it might have been a go-kart accident that I had when I was in J1. While I walked away relatively unscathed, save for an abrasion on my neck(thanks to the seat belt) and 2 mega-sized bruises high up on my thighs, I was extremely shaken. The impact was really strong and if I didn't fasten my belt, I'd definitely have been seriously hurt, or even killed.
I think that was the closest that I came to death. No joke.
At the time when I crashed, the first thought that came to my mind was 'OMG how am I going to pass my driving test in future?!'
Sounds dumb I know. ><

The funny thing was, I didn't feel anything until I got home, told my parents about the accident, and suddenly broke down crying. And when I was in front of my classmates, I was still laughing and feeling more or less light-hearted then.
Perhaps in front of my classmates, it might have been an act of bravado, trying to convince them and myself that I was really alright. But the sudden breakdown might have been the shock taking longer than usual to set in.

And generally, I don't cry in front of people.