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Wednesday, February 21, 2007 9:30 PM

stress.

Damn. I'm screwed. Chem test today went badly, I couldn't remember how to do some of the questions. and I didn't do 1 question at all! OMG. And I was hoping to do well for the first chem test in JJC. at best, I might just scrape through. Damn. Apparently I didn't study enough.. Because I was too slack, during CNY period I didn't have that much time to sit down and stare at my books.

School today was.. abit dull. only went for GP tutorial and chem lecture(test). civics and chinese I ponned. I always end up stoning during these periods anyway.
When school ended at 1, me shiyun and shihui went to JP to buy a present for one of the J2 councillors. [shall not say his name cos if he comes by my blog and finds out.. we're dead. haha] went around for ages trying to decide something that was nice and within our budget.

It reminded me of the time when last june, me jocelyn and jingni came to JP as well to buy presents for the whole percussion section. Trying to find something suitable for padey and syahir=hell.
We walked around JP in circles, looking in every shop for something suitable. the only problem was that what we found suitable, was too expensive. dammit.

So me shiyun shihui faced that same problem.. the presents thing is more or less settled, now what's left is the card. hand-made! doing it in school tml. =)

reached back to school at around 3.15, rushed to band room to hear christofle playing the familiar sax solo in 7th night of july. I took over ying han at the mallets.. thank god I still remember my part! after about 2 years not seeing the score.
went through the piece again, this time I took over victor at snare drum. I suck. My roll still sounds horrible. no thanks to not enough practice at the snare and the fact that I major in mallets.

shadows meeting after that, discussed some stuff about our proposals, then polished up our mass dances and cheers. at least everything went quite smoothly today. so thanks for that. even though I'm dead exhausted.

michael, victor, ying han, PLEASE don't say I'm pro. I really don't think I'm that good, I'm only just abit above average, that's all. I'm still just an ordinary percussionist. period.

I feel really bad that I have to keep pangseh-ing the percussionists everytime because of shadows. I really enjoy it in shadows although it's tiring and stressful, but also I realised that in the midst of enjoying myself in shadows, I also may make the percussionists unhappy with me in the long run. so what if I'm a fairly good percussionist? if my band attendance sucks, it's also no point. I might as well not have joined JJ band in the first place. and especially to christofle, I know that you face alot of problems in band because of the low attendance rate and everything.. =( I'm really sorry you guys!
I'll do whatever I can to keep my attendance rate regular.. =)

Labels: band life, SCDC shadows, stress